On the day before my 40th decade ends I woke up at 4am and couldn’t go back to sleep. My mind was racing as I went through all the things that stuck out from 2003 to 2013.
It just doesn’t seem that long ago that I was in the same situation except I was 39 turning 40. I recall feeling differently than I do now. Forty seemed so sexy. Forty was… I am woman hear me roar. Forty was the older, wiser woman that I had become.
That year I celebrated the big “4-0″ with an incredible birthday dinner at Saddle Peak Lodge just outside of Malibu with some of my treasured friends. (99% of them still are and I love all of you) What a night that was.
In 2003, I had three kids under the age of 8, four black labs and some rabbits.
Ten years later, I have 2 teenage drivers and a 7th grader. I live with 4 dogs (not all labs), 5 chickens, 2 horses and a random coyote.
During my 40′s I did the following:
Ended the friendship with someone (the 1%) who turned into someone I didn’t care for anymore. Ended a business with that person and started an amazing new one. I am very grateful that Sunday Set-Up is taking me to a place I would have never imagined. Incredible people that I get to meet and work with on a daily basis.
Wrote two additional books, Fit and Sexy for Life and Momenergy to add to my collection of 8. My husband and I got three kids through elementary school. Introduced them to the instruments that they now love; trumpet, clarinet, trombone, violin and viola. Dozens of concerts and hours of practice. All three became FORD models. I’m very proud of them.
I continued to fly back and forth to New York for the Today Show. When it was still… The Today Show! Sorry, GMA has you finally beat you.
Met dozens of celebrities in their homes to teach them Sunday Set-Up. Moved three times into 3 magnificent homes. Bought a new cottage next to my old cottage. Built a two story shed and a chicken coop.
Got the most precious dog in the world, Red my bulldog who is under my desk right now.
Hocked my wedding ring to pay for my new business. Interviewed hip surgeons as I walked in tremendous pain. Fortunately, I was introduced to the company USANA which has changed my daily routine permanently.
Last year, I watched my father decline and finally depart. I will miss you dad. I wish that you were still here to be with me in these next decades. Almost lost two of my uncles. Did a lot of praying. Found the church I wanted to attend, but it burned down that morning. Joined it anyway and love the church family I now belong to.
Switched from a white wine drinker to red. Decided that dark chocolate was way better than milk.
Bought horses for my kids and learned to love them. Traveled with my kids to show them. Treasured the time I spent mucking after them. Dreamed of riding them, but I can’t not this decade or the next.
Our rabbits got killed by dogs, chickens got killed by coyotes. Evacuated from our home from the fires. Prayed each day while glued to CNN as my brother was deployed 4 times to Iraq and Afghanistan.
Participated in 4 community theatre shows. Produced 7 community “kids” theatre shows.
Drove across country to Canada for our summer vacation 18 times, there and back, there and back…
Watched friends get married. Had one almost get divorced. Thank God one FINALLY did get divorced. Prayed for my cousin with breast cancer and thank God it’s gone.
Downhill skied and water skied. Good old hip!
Educated people about USANA, SmartChicken, Sneaky Pete’s, Rockin Refuel, Boniva and many more.
Decided that being with the same person for 20 years IS going to work. I love you bud.
So when I ask does turning 50 suck? Well, right now I feel like it does.
I am scared that I am going to run out of energy and ideas. That I might be too tired to be creative and imaginative. That I will lose my gumption to be spontaneous and hesitate on my typical “YES I CAN DO THAT FOR YOU” answer.
I’m scared that I will start to think about 50 being the beginning of the end. The downhill ride as opposed to the uphill one.
I’m scared that I am really going to start looking at the lines on my face and the feathering skin on my legs and think omg those are here to stay, there are more coming and there is nothing I can do about it.
I hate that 50 means so many more doctor’s appointments. I hate that 50 is half way to 100 and there a only a few lucky folks who make it to that centenarian birthday.
However, I love that I lost my period in my 40′s and won’t be finding it in my 50′s. I love that bio-identical hormones helped me through the worst of it.
Hey look at that, I started using the word love.
I love that I still adore my husband. I know that I will love my kids just as much as I do tonight at 49 as I will when I wake up tomorrow when I am 50. That is a for sure, no doubt about it.
I know I will love my animals and I am filled with excitement about all the future animals that I am going to come to know and love.
Being only hours away from a new decade I don’t feel as bad as I did this morning. I am actually feeling like I can do this. My energy is starting to percolate. I am going to sell my Sunday Set-Up television show. I will have more and more Sunday Set-Up club members from all over the globe. I am going to stay as fit as I possibly can. I am excited to…I better stop I can go on and on.
This will be a decade full of change. Kids going off to college, another teenage driver, weddings, births, big anniversaries, moving, my company and so much more.
Good bye 49 and HELLO 50!